PHQ-Nickname:
Wolfsbane
Halfquake:
The Chamber
Level:
1
Total kills:
64
Birthday:
00th 0000
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| 11-13-03 Maybe my last writings... |
| Mood: | ^^ |
| Type: | Diary entry |
| Added: | November 14th 2003, 02:49:51 |
| Visits: | 1407 |
| Series: | [ Lucius' Journal ] |
| Rating: | Not rated yet. |
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Well, it is I, Lucius...
I don't think I'll ever be writing again. She's happy now. I've lost the one I gave my "heart" to...so to speak. Well, Rikki, she's gone now. Gone forever. I'm not going into a depression. My "heart" is just now missing. I have no purpose here anymore. Amy doesn't seem to need me, and her anger is fading away. I have no purpose here in this...place...or any place. I'm through. I've saved Amy for the last time. She's on her own now. I have nothing left to give. The only love I had I gave to Rikki and Rick. I know Rick does not need me around, for I am just a bother to him. I may seem a little cold-hearted right now, but thats me. I used to always be cruel, but I changed the way I was, being inspired by Rikki. Well, I don't seem to have a purpose. Amy wants to keep me around, just, around. I say good luck to her...the sadistic bitch. She's going to keep me around just at a state where I'm so weak and almost dead. Well, thats it. I'm gone, for the most part. I'm just...gone. I'm fading and I can feel it, in every part of my being. I know that if I try to stay, I will just fade slowly, so I'm just going to fade alone in her mind. I'll just fade away alone, by myself. And since I know that no one will read this, it won't matter. Well, I want to say goodbye to all. Especially to Rick. He has been putting up with my shit for sometime and I owe him one for that. So, goodbye and thank you to Rick and Amy. Well, goodbye.
Lucius
ps-don't ever expect me to write again... |
hollow
November 14th 2003, 10:16:38
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| mayhaps you'll read this or you might not. I say that in Rikki's death, she was not alone, because your love and friendship warmed her. In this same way I hope that if you choose to fade away without seeing what life may still have been, do so knowing that you also are not alone, even in the lightless recesses of a mind. Have peace. |
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