PHQ-Nickname: Wolfsbane
Halfquake: The Chamber
Level: 1
Total kills: 64
Birthday: 00th 0000
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Mood: | depressive |
Type: | Diary entry |
Added: | November 30th 2003, 03:51:43 |
Visits: | 1475 |
Series: | [ Amy's Journals... ] |
Rating: | Not rated yet. |
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FUCK IT! I've tried. I truly have. I REALLY and TRULY have. But, my efforts are going unnoticed and if they are noticed, they are ignored. Nothing is good enough. I've tried. I've tried standing up to my mother. I failed. But I still tried. I've tried and tried, and I feel like I'm going to break. Maybe I will. Maybe I'll just die soon. I hope so. I shouldn't have prevented Damien from killing me. I should have never asked him not to and given him that hug. I should have let the knife go through my god damned mother fucking throat. I now have no will. I love Legion/Rick. But, he wants me to change and wants me to grow up. I CAN'T! I had to when I was little. I HAD TO. But in the past I HAD to grow up quickly. So, I regressed as of recent. So I could enjoy what's left of my childhood/teenage years. But now, I'm too immature. And I'm not enough of a lady. I'm too immature and I'm not perfect. I don't look perfect. I'm too fucking god damn fat, and I can never be perfect. I hate this... I don't think I'll be on PHQ until I can figure what's goin on in my life. Until then, farewell to all. |
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