PHQ-Nickname:
Wolfsbane
Halfquake:
The Chamber
Level:
1
Total kills:
64
Birthday:
00th 0000
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| Mood: | neutral |
| Type: | Diary entry |
| Added: | December 06th 2003, 18:43:21 |
| Visits: | 1289 |
| Series: | [ Amy's Journals... ] |
| Rating: | Not rated yet. |
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"Them"
that's what Legion and I call the things I see. usually people, or shapes of people.
but recently, they are getting more and more defined. as if i can see the details on the faces and bodies of "them". i don't quite get it. they still reach out or touch my arms and back. but i try to keep layers on. it's weird. i don't get it...
and Legion doesn't see them, as far as i know, but i do. he just kinda figures out when i'm staring at them. then he blocks my view. but i don't know if he understands it all. i think he does, but i still don't know...
i mean. i used to talk to them before. i used to be able to see them as normal. i don't anymore, cuz i asked them to go away, and then i wanted them to come back. so, slowly they've been getting clearer. now, i can see them if i can feel them. i can feel that they are there, all i have to do is concentrate and close my eyes. then i open my eyes, and there they are, STARING at me, or reaching out towards me.
the time i reached back, there was a little girl. she looked so sad, then angry, then i just wanted to cry for her. she couldn't cry. i couldn't cry. but i could feel her, then i could see her. she touched my hand when i reached out, then every time she wanted my attention, she would touch my hand. it didn't matter where i was.
it's weird to look and see nothing, then look away for a second, literally, and then look back to someone staring into your face just an inch or two away. it really is freaky.
but the cool thing is, they are the only constants. when i'm sad, angry, happy...whatever i am feeling, they never leave. they don't mind. it's as if they need to stay with me.
no, there aren't the same ones all the time. sometimes there will be one from before. but they are usually different.
sometimes, they talk. but that's rare. and when they do, i can tell. they sound...unhuman. usually when they talk, i get earaches and my ears ring. not to mention the buzzing sound that is a constant when they talk. that's sometimes how i can tell that they are there at all.
sometimes, when i can't see them, but i hear a buzzing and a ring, i know that they are there. it gets hard to hear what they say, so sometimes, i just keep my mind open, and i picture what they say. i don't know how to describe it. |
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