PHQ-Nickname:
Wolfsbane
Halfquake:
The Chamber
Level:
1
Total kills:
64
Birthday:
00th 0000
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| Mood: | pessimistic |
| Type: | Diary entry |
| Added: | January 04th 2004, 02:28:28 |
| Visits: | 1310 |
| Series: | [ Amy's Journals... ] |
| Rating: | Not rated yet. |
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Well, where to start...Happy New Year to anyone that actually reads this I guess. I don't know why anyone would. I don't even read this...but then again...I write this shit. Well, what's new...well...not too much. Rick, Lucius, and I will all be losing someone that is very dear to us. But then again...we should have known it would happen sooner or later.
I don't know what to do. I'm hurting again inside, but do I tell the person that is causing all of this unwanted pain. Maybe this is just my own anxieties getting in my way. But I was so proud of something today, and when I told this person, he didn't seem to care. He actually seemed rather upset. But I was proud of this, even though I know the girl that asked me to do this thing for her is not the nicest person, and will stab me in the back (literally) if she could. But the way that the person I told reacted was no better than the way my sister, Nicole, reacts when I try to tell her about some new cool thing I'm doing. I just get so frustrated.
I don't know what to do. There is more pain. I don't know if I should tell the one that is causing it. There are old memories associated with places and things...memories I do NOT want back. Memories I don't even want to replace or try to make better. Memories I just want to forget about and hopefully never think of them again. But someone is in my way of doing all of this. Someone who wants me to rid myself of these memories and then asks me about every little detail as soon as I start to rid myself of these memories. I can't stand it, so now I'm just not even trying anymore. I was doing SO god damn good, but all of my efforts have been in vain.
This is just eating away at my insides. Do I tell the one that causes these pains, or do I just keep them to myself? |
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