PHQ-Nickname:
Legion
Halfquake:
The Asylum
Level:
10
Total kills:
60,346
Birthday:
June 22nd 1984
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| Oh, please don't take this away from me... |
| Mood: | depressive |
| Type: | Diary entry |
| Added: | February 12th 2004, 16:06:22 |
| Visits: | 1312 |
| Series: | [ A love life now lost ] |
| Rating: | Not rated yet. |
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Description:
I am presently listening to Mad World By Gary Jules...which I miss singing to...along with LSGF...oh and Day In A Life...oh yeah and Mr. Roboto...and doing the robot to it, yep...I'm a dork, lol...I forgot to mention some X-Japan...new band I'm into, good song tears...very moving, very good piano |
Its been a little while since I've written here but hey...that is how it is.
Just a couple of months ago, I was at a pizza place, my arms were around her as I spoke with my best friend who'd hand me a few slices of cheese pizza and a soda to share with Amy and I.
It was just the ability to sit down with someone I love more than anything with one of my best friends, and then just...being able to relax and enjoy being together. No worries, no cares, just letting time pass by with a smile.
Being able to wake up...fall out of bed...drag a comb across my head, find my way downstairs and drink a cup, notice I am late...and then grab my coat and hat...and get to her in seconds flat...or that could of been the beatles...sorry, heh...
Now I'm just wondering if I will be alone this Valentine's day...which...I'd give my very life to just have someone...19 years...and I've never ever had someone...ever...and thats all I want...and I'm just wondering why its so bad? Why is it so wrong to want someone to hold and love on such a special meaningful day? Did I do something so horrible to deserve to sit by myself...in a corner, crying because I feel so alone and all I want is that special someone I love...to hold me in their arms? I'm just wondering what...*sigh*...
I don't want anyone to tell me there will be others that will be alone for that day...I'm always alone for that day...always have been. I don't want to be told, "Thats how life is, accept it." And...and I just feel so...terrible that something that means so much to me...can be toyed with by the cruel fates...
*looks down*...A tear goes down my face and I just hope that everything turns out well for this weekend...because I worry so much...
Legion
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