PHQ-Nickname:
Wolfsbane
Halfquake:
The Chamber
Level:
1
Total kills:
64
Birthday:
00th 0000
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| Mood: | silent |
| Type: | Diary entry |
| Added: | February 16th 2004, 05:06:01 |
| Visits: | 1238 |
| Series: | [ Amy's Journals... ] |
| Rating: | Not rated yet. |
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Well...after about three hours of crying I'm done. I'm overly emotional right now. I cannot say why exactly...but I will tell the majority of it.
1) I MISS LEGION! I cannot extend the full truth of this. I really miss him though. I miss him
more than I though would be possible. I miss every little and not so little thing about him.
I can't believe I've without him for the past month. I've been a wreck without him. I've
been sick for a month straight. I'm not gettin much better. I've actually gotten worse.
I miss:
-The way he lets me cuddle into his chest.
-His protectiveness.
-His warm embrace.
-The way he says I love you to me.
-The feel of his soft warms lips caressing mine as we kiss.
-His scent.
-His smile
-His company.
-His love.
-The look in his eyes when he says he loves me.
-His soft touch.
-The way he kisses.
-The way his skin gives way when bitten.
-The fact that he listens.
-Callin him every god damned day.
-Seeing him every weekend.
-Him.
-His forgetfulness.
-Everything...even the hardships.
-There's so much more too...
2) I FEEL LIKE I'VE BETRAYED THE ONE I LOVE. A lot of things have been happening. I've
been betrayed, and at the same time, I've betrayed the only person that means anything
to me. How could I be so thoughtless? I've failed him, Legion.
3) MY SUPPOSED FRIEND TURNED ON ME. This girl I though was my friend has gone and
tunred on me. She wants me to be her friend, but I can never trust her again. She almost
ruined my whole god damned life. Just because of her, I am in a worse place than I would
have been.
It hit me today, how much all of these and many other factors have been getting to me. It's eating me alive. But in spite of it all, I am happy. As weird as this is for me. I'm happy. I know who I love, I know he loves me back...or shoudl I say they. The three of them, all trapped in one body and mind. I love you Rick, I love you Rikki, I love you Damien. I love them all. I love them so much, that I can't even describe it.
I'm striving for acceptance, or I was. But as of recent, I'm only working on one main goal: Being with Legion. I want to be with him. I will be getting a job soon. Then I will work on putting money aside for a car. Then for an apartment, so when I get out of highschool, I will be out of here. Hopefully I'll have some help there, so I won't have to do this all on my own. This is my goal. I want to be with him. And...whether I'm 18 or not, when I have a car, I can go out for weird periods of time, just saying I'm going to the mall or out with friends.
Well, I'm off for now, so I'll do whatever. I cannot trust very many people anymore. I can still trust my Legion, and I hope he knows he can still trust me. I love him very much, more than even I can completely understand. I must be off for now to go be myself and be silly.
LEGION: I love you. Never forget how much I love you. I don't know if you'll read this, but i want to write this anyways. Cuz I do love you, more than you know. I'm sorry that I left you before, I regret that everyday. I hope I can make it up to you someday, when we are together forever. I LOVE YOU!
~Amy |
LivingDeadGirl
February 16th 2004, 20:17:39
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| Amy, I love you so much and I so have to write you something that shows how much I've missed you. I think we both will. Thank you for everything! |
Legion
February 16th 2004, 21:22:25
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Dearest Love...don't feel bad...I miss you so much and its going to be okay...no really it will...and no need to make it up to me...I love you and that is all that matters okay? I care about you and I miss you with all my heart..
Legion |
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