PHQ-Nickname:
Legion
Halfquake:
The Asylum
Level:
10
Total kills:
60,346
Birthday:
June 22nd 1984
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Description:
Some people just...never ever learn... |
I lost my patience with a girl whose been with me through thick and thin...finally she made the fatal mistake of turning to violence as a last resort.
Rikki, my other half...so strongly she feels that she MUST fight first. That blood is the final resolution. I don't really get it...I'm rather sick and tired of why she must always start something all because someone said something she's not happy about. Its as if she can't take lil comments...
The power to let something go...is the power to forgive and forget. Why she hasn't done this...I can't say why...but I no longer wanted to hear the tirades of a being...so set on doing whatever it takes. Not caring how many people will be hurt physically/mentally which is exactly what got me into this problem in the first place.
Anyway...I've put her on restriction...and I too, am on some level of restriction...I've been straight edge again for nearly a month, very proud of that fact. So has Leigh (but by her own choice). Life continues and seems to be better for it.
After talking with Shiro for some time we got into a big discussion about drama...and I realized...ever since I got out of high school...and high school relationships...my drama levels have been on an all time low. Its as if I really got nothin' to worry about anymore cept for the bills...which I don't really get angry at. Though...I sorta miss the drama. I noticed I thrive off of pain and hurt...thats so...masochistic of me!
Well, Shiro and I are going to chill soon and try to ease each other's trouble minds. Hopefully, something will come along and make it a little easier. *sigh* Sometimes I worry alot for the girl...she told me a bit about what has been going on...her life, parents, people at school, heh...brave girl I think. I smile cuz she reminds me of how I used to be in HS on a day to day basis. It was funny...I asked her, who are your craziest friends? She said that my darling ex was the number one. Apparently, I scored number two.
Scary.
Speaking of which...my other ex has decided that she will NOT leave me alone. Its become VERY VERY difficult to even proceed in my own life with her consistantly badgering me for what she desires. You'd think after three years of knowing me she'd understand that sometimes...I'm stubborn. "Don't eat cheez its they'll make you sick."...Etc...But, she figures for some odd reason since I was her first boyfriend, the one that taught her the ropes...too her virginity...etc... that we have gotten older...wiser...that we are bound to be buddies now...right?
HA! The girl tried to ruin my life and now I'm just gonna be her buddy? My entire senior year...gone to shambles...
I'm supposed to meet her at Club Hell next wensday...I don't know if I'll do it...
If I can muster up the courage...I don't think I see a reason why I shouldn't...can't hold /harbor a grudge forever...
What could possibly go wrong?
Sincerely,
Legion |
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