PHQ-Nickname:
psychomessiahs
Halfquake:
Staple Center
Level:
75
Total kills:
18,122,314
Birthday:
September 22nd 1988
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| Mood: | tired |
| Type: | Diary entry |
| Added: | January 27th 2005, 18:16:06 |
| Visits: | 1057 |
| Series: | [ My way downstairs ] |
| Rating: | Not rated yet. |
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Description:
I just canÂ't stand it anymore- |
Hey.
Last month was just a huge mess. Doom started on January 1. As Nina told me, weÂ'd have a relationship. (official. WeÂ've been dating for a few weeks) Everything seemed ok, I felt quite a time of happyness wich is quite rare, kept in mind that I wanted to drown myself in the River Main on New Years Eve.
drifting.. Where was I? Ah yes. Everything seemed ok, until that one fateful day I asked her if she had time for me. She refused. no Problem with that, but she refused the next day, and the next again, too. I began to wonder and asked her. I like to keep things as easy as possible so I use to talk to people directly if there is any issue. Ok I did.
backgroundinfo: You should know, her mother died, and her father (sheÂ'd go mad if she reads this) is nothing than a lazy ass, lying all day in front of the tv and let her work for him.
As I asked her, why allways refused me, she said sheÂ'd so much work. Ok I accepted that.
The next day she wrote a SMS, that its over and Â'd be better without her. Slightly confused, panical and angry I answered. The was quite an arguement until I couldnÂ't stand it any longer.
I stayed like this for two days, trying to hate for, because then it didnÂ't hurt that much, but I just couldnÂ't. I canÂ't hate her.
Now she told me that she dindÂ't ment to loose me and that we could try it again. You know, my heart said "Yehaa", but then my brain appeared and said "she hurt you more than anyone before, ahe is an asshole". I know none of my friends would understand me, being in a relationship with her again, after all she did to me, but I want to. I feel like Shizophrene.
Damnit, Life sucks.
And Girls suck, too.
Ok nearly everything sucks.
But Girls are in the top 3, next to life and school.
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Sirion
January 27th 2005, 20:03:09
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that's what I'm thinking about for a week now...
life school and my family... just a cruel nightmare
my girlf friend having so much time for everything except me
hurting me, hating me, saying she didn't mean it like this.
and I can't decide what to do cause I still love her
nearly the same story as your's
I'm not feeling with you,
I'm feeling the same way as you. |
DarkEnchantress
January 31st 2005, 05:44:46
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Ehem..... ok sooooo girls suck.... fine, but not 'all'
The girl did not suck, you just said girls suck coz that girl hurted you and
you just hate her and you had in mind they suck, but if you are the girl
and you have the same situation, you'll just say 'boys' suck....  so.....
I think you should say: Love sucks- if it is love....
If i were you, i would accept her again....- i think you do love her you're just
afraid to take the chance..... well i am ready to take a risk of being hurt coz, that's natural, that is the game of love!  |
psychomessiahs
January 31st 2005, 12:12:11
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| Ok, you are right. Love Sux, but then again girl suck (or at least most of them). |
DarkEnchantress
February 01st 2005, 09:59:33
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| fine, if that's your point of view... ok |
psychomessiahs
February 01st 2005, 11:27:58
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| I said at least. LetÂ's say all that I ever met. Is that ok with you? |
DarkEnchantress
February 02nd 2005, 13:09:17
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| sure |
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