PHQ-Nickname:
Wolfsbane
Halfquake:
The Chamber
Level:
1
Total kills:
64
Birthday:
00th 0000
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| 8-18-03 *sigh* Love, Rick, Ozzfest, Hickey, Mother, Dealing |
| Mood: | happy |
| Type: | Diary entry |
| Added: | August 19th 2003, 05:30:38 |
| Visits: | 1418 |
| Series: | [ Amy's Journals... ] |
| Rating: | Not rated yet. |
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I definately experienced the 3 1/2 most sadistic, dominated, bonded, and best hours of my life yesterday. Wow...it was completely awesome. I have never felt that awesome. Oh, and those hours were...the best. Yeah. Not to mention the phone conversation I had last week.
To my dear, sweet Rick. I love you hun, I really do. I never want to lose you...ever. I love you so much. I can't believe you gave me over 50 reasons that you love me and love to have me.
Well, lets see, haven't written in a while. Hmmmm. Well, I went to Ozzfest with my buddy Brian, it was awesome. I met the band DISTURBED and got autographs. I also met UNLOCO and Twisted Method. He he he...I gave my UNLOCO poster to my dear, sweet Rick.
I know that whoever reads this will either care or won't give a shit. But, I got the first hickey on my neck. I have had hickeys before, but never on my neck...and I got one yesterday. I am very happy about this. My ex (John) tried to give me a hickey once for over an hour...but he failed to even make my neck red. He he he...now my dear sweet Rick has given me a hickey. He he he.
Well, my mother tried to keep me from seeing my dear, sweet Rick today, but with no avail. She eventually gave up on that when she realized that keeping me home the whole night would only hinder he ability to use the phone. He he. That and the fact that I would not have left my room all night. I don't know why...but I think that made her mad because she wouldn't have been able to make fun of me. Oh is she immature. I understand that I am also immature, but, I am more mature than she is. Wow, I dunno what to write.
Well, I found out the other day that my ex (John) was using me for about four months just for sex. This pissed me off, but I'm over it. Yes, it hurts me inside to know this, but I am handling it quite well. I think the only reason I have not freaked out completely is because my dear, sweet Rick has helped me. He is there for me when I need him most, whether it be emotionally or physically. I am so happy to have him. I can't imagine how any of this summer would have been without him. I don't even think I would be alive right now. I think my depression of bieng alone would have kicked in. I would have had no one there for me. Putting up with my family is horrid. They know nothing about me...NOTHING. And the funny thing is, I've been handling all of the John situation without going blank...which is what my mind does when something not good happens. I can't believe that. I have not gone blank. I will admit though that I have gone a little crazy at times, but not to the extent which I would normally go. Wow, my dear, sweet Rick does more for me than I could ever fully tell anyone, even if I tried. Keeping me from going blank is a feat in itself, I am in awe that he can accomplish such a feat.
Well, this is all I can write for right now. My mind is getting tired of thinking. Not to mention that I have other matters to attend to at the moment. I must feed my cat before he eats away at my legs. Goodnight to whoever reads this...and sweet dreams.
Happy 2 Months my Prince. I love you.
~Amy |
muddasheep
August 26th 2003, 08:53:44
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I can't believe that there are such assholes like your ex John out there, even though they are everywhere .. some people are just alive to be an asshole, and the irony on this part is that those people are mostly more successful than "normal" people .. and using people just for someone's sexual drive is inexcusable and sick ..
I am very sorry for you, Amy, and I hope you're getting over it .. *hugs* |
Legion
September 02nd 2003, 06:38:47
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First off...those 3 1/2 hours totally ruled my love...2nd of all...I can't wait until we 'deal' with John appropriately which I hope will be so soon. And I agree with Muddasheep...its sick and inexcusable. I already gave you a hug...but I'll send another to you my darling. *Hugs*...I'm so sorry for everything you've been going through.
I'll do whatever I can to help you out darlin. |
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muddasheep
Legion
