PHQ-Nickname:
LordAsriel
Halfquake:
Garbage Fort
Level:
17
Total kills:
378,946
Birthday:
May 20th 1991
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| Mood: | depressive |
| Type: | Diary entry |
| Added: | May 24th 2005, 07:24:45 |
| Visits: | 1478 |
| Series: | [ The Less ] |
| Rating: | Not rated yet. |
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There are more and more the nights in which I stay looking at the roof and thinking "Why the hell should I keep living?" I found myself doing things I don't like, being pressed by forces that I know if I face them I would be expulsed of society.
There may be 9/10 parts of this life I'd like to quit forever... Is the other 1/10 that valuable as to live a martyrdom 9 times longer and infinitely unbearable?
I take a look to death and it seems to be the most beautiful thing I can imagine, a safety scape from life, an eternal peaceful rest... forever.
It's told that the suicide is serious when he stops asking why to ask for what... I've been my whole life asking for what, and the answer is less sustanciable each time. I don't know what to do, my heart is sad, my mind is dark, my body seems to be such as an useless thing and my social threat is indifferent to me.
What shall I do? Wait?
And what am I waiting for? Death? |
muddasheep
May 25th 2005, 17:49:14
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come on man, cheer yourself up!  I know life sucks, but eh, we all gotta make the best of it  suicide is boring btw  |
LordAsriel
May 26th 2005, 06:04:24
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 I know, but hey, it's true that 9/10 of the life suck, but it's also true that we only think about it seriously in something like 1/100 of our life. I needed to discharge myself.
Thanks
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