PHQ-Nickname:
Seth275
Halfquake:
Seth Galaxy Corp.
Level:
21
Total kills:
614,025
Birthday:
November 20th 1986
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| Mood: | dead |
| Type: | Diary entry |
| Added: | August 15th 2005, 17:29:56 |
| Visits: | 1310 |
| Series: | [ Thoughts about (My) Life ] |
| Rating: | Not rated yet. |
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Description:
Just a Text ... I don't really mind if the Person it's about reads it - I guess |
Yeha hi I just wanted to right something down to bring clearence to my mind though this probably dosen't help 
Yeha so where should I start maybe with the Title of the Thread ... it describes how I fell right now.
So yeha I think I should get a bit back in Time  I've been sad or depressiv for some days now or even a Week I don't know. I don't even really now why. I think there could be multiple casulties. First of all there's something with a Girl, the last thing I'm going to talk about. I think the "other" things that bother me are 2 Things. Ok one is not real, the one I'm telling you right now. I send a letter to my father instead of talking to him, I just think I can't do it I won't endure it to stand right in Front of him and talking to him. I taped the letter to his door quite some weeks ago - no respons till now. Yeha this dosen't really bothe rme but I wanted to write that down anyway. So yeha there is 1 thing left before the Girl thing.
My mother recently told me again that I wanted to work for my Driving License and I realised again that I'm just so fucking lazy that I didn't to anything for it till a few days ago and yeha I have to do some kind of "Homework" for school that's still at Zero Precent and I know I have to work hard to get through that Year at school but at the same time I know I'll just be as lazy as always and don't do anything and therefore will get bad grades and tis will probably result in a bad Job and maybe I won#t be able to get to univerity (though I'm still not sure if I'll go there anyway) so yeha what bothers me is that I'm just this fat assed lazy boy but somehow I'm not able to change that at the same time.
So yeha now there's this big case: GIRL
Yeha I have to travel further back in time. Yeha so recently I found a bit more acceptense but hmmm yeha somewhat I'm a bit confused and don't know if I really should be glad about it there were some nice moments as you can read in some parts of my blog (http://blog.seth-galaxy.net) I mean somwhere I'm really glad about it. But yeha there is one guy whos GF is a girl I really liked to. I'd call 'em both my best friends. So yeha with his GF I recently had a qury conversation about different stuff so anyway we chatted and stuff and yeha we got somehow to the question if I got feelings for her. Yeha anyway so yeha I had feelings for her and still I sometimes to things in my mind she better dosen't know off (hope she dosen't ever read this :/)
Yeha but so we had that conversation I didn't even have to think about it I said yeha I really had feelings for you but you're together with him and I'm glad for ya. So no Problem at all but since that day something ticked off I man damn I just yeha bah. I don't really fee no wait that's wrong so yeha maybe this suites. My feelings just somewhat got stronger but somehow not it's so confusing and since that day I really get pissed if I here those things couple tell each other and this kissing and stuff. I mean I was a bit distrubed or whatever by it before as well but I think it was just because I don't have a GF and yeha man I'm so fucking confused I mean I at least could supress my feelings till that query.
So yhea sorry for bothering your with this post I should've put it in my blog but yeha bla whatever dunno how to get on right no so I leave it like that and post it. If something get's into my mind I'll edit this post :/
Yeha just a minor addition. This all didn't lead to my "bad mood phase" espacily the query didn't it was jst on Friday or seomthing like that. |
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