PHQ-Nickname:
Wolfsbane
Halfquake:
The Chamber
Level:
1
Total kills:
64
Birthday:
00th 0000
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| 9-04-03 I am quite sorry for my moods |
| Mood: | depressive |
| Type: | Diary entry |
| Added: | September 05th 2003, 02:38:21 |
| Visits: | 1375 |
| Series: | [ Amy's Journals... ] |
| Rating: | Not rated yet. |
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Well, not that anyone reads this. So why does it matter? It doesn't. I just feel like writing, and if I were to place my random writings in the forum, it would be considered spam, and those that read it would get irritated with my writings. Well, I have been undergoing extreme mood changes lately. I know I have already apologized for my actions, so I will not do this again. Well, here it goes. Anger, depression, and normal. Those are the moods. Its easy enough to switch between them.
Depression is the most constant. It hasn't left me ever, and was my way of escaping into a world that was my own. It lead to cutting and me being all sad for myself. My own pity party. In a way, it is the strongest. I am also most dependant on depression. It makes my little meta-clock go tick tock tick tock. Depression is my normal writing with the lack of fun, emotion, and passion. It would just be boring words. Not even a clear thought. Depression is, well, it just is. I warn anyone that talks to me when I am in that mood to not be angry with me or insulted if I do not understand or just always seem sad. There is nothing anyone can do.
Normal is mostly what you are seeing now. It will have my usual ammounts of emotion, passion, etc. Well, in normal I will be the way I am every day. But normal is my weakest mood. It can easily be taken over by one of the other two.
Anger, now Anger is a trick. My anger is just...weird. After it is over, I will not remember a damn thing I said or did and will have to REALLY THINK to get even the slightest hint at what was said or done. Anger is by no means the strongest. But, it is the most powerful. Anger is my hate, and I will write and speak in the third person. No, hun, it is not a personality. You know this. Well, my Anger is what actually can keep me going for the day. But, the bad thing is, when I go into my Anger mood, I can easily slip into depression. Which could be a bad thing.
So, just to let anyone that reads this know. If I do not come on to PHQ for a while, it is only because I am in certain moods and do not wish to risk loosing any of the friends I have made here. Another reason could be that I am sick or something of that sort. Well, thats all for now.
I love you hun, please read the notes I will give you, and please, if you don't understand...ask me when I am angry.
Love you babes.
~Amy |
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