PHQ-Nickname:
Legion
Halfquake:
The Asylum
Level:
10
Total kills:
60,346
Birthday:
June 22nd 1984
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| 06-20-03 Old Entry Typed Out |
| Mood: | happy |
| Type: | Diary entry |
| Added: | March 06th 2004, 23:32:53 |
| Visits: | 1149 |
| Series: | [ A love life now lost ] |
| Rating: | Not rated yet. |
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Description:
The first ever writings about Amy and I |
"Dear Journal,
Guess what! You wouldn't believe what has happened in the last two days. Well, I'll tell you. Well, first I'll update some current events, then I'll say the rest. My birthday is in two days. That is great...but it seems like most of my friends have forgotten about me. But, I guess that doesn't matter.
I met someone. Her name is Amy and I think I am falling for her. She has taken my heart and I am powerless to stop her. She's absolutly everything I've ever wanted in a girl and more. The last two days have been the best days of my life. Being with her for a hour has brought me to this state of happiness that I can't describe and has really helped me forget about everything, especially Marianne, the lingering thought in my mind.
Lets see, Amy is 16, she's a little taller than me, she has INCREDIBLY long hair and I am partially jealous because I wanted to try growing it out that long, she wears glasses, has a medium build, has these beautiful brownish eyes that change shades, and does all the perfect things I've been looking for in a girl since...ever.
Yesterday she grabbed me by the rings of my collar and dragged me into a kiss which I felt like I was butter melting afterwards. Her and I both want to just kiss each other until our tongues get tired. She tells me that she loves the way I grab her legs, caress her legs and arms, how I push up against her, and just the way I do almost everything. And in all honesty, I love everything she does. Especially that she wants to see me all the time, I don't believe it at all but its as if she wants to spend every waking hour with me, I love it!
I don't know what has been running through my mind but I have done somethings in a relationship within the first 2 days that I have never expected...it was really cool and weird at the same thing. I decided I'd show her something which we thought was funny but unusually large...excuse me while I put the pen down and laugh at her reaction some more...
Okay, I'm good, lets try this again. Oh wow, I am reading a mail from her now, I looked at her profile and it says: Talk to Rick again without parents hating me: 14 Days That is two weeks, wow that seems like forever. I was an hour late bringing her home after her showing me the woods and running around, stopping and kissing each other from time to time. Which was hysterical, then finding a snake, then taking it home, and then introducing her to my family, where she stood in the middle of the living room, trying not to be noticed, but my family makes sure your noticed...lol. She really looked like was happy but uncomfortable. I wonder why. She's so talkative around me and my family but around her sister and that guy Allen (He scares me because he has man breasts) she's quiet as all hell. When her sister and her make eye contact her gaze immediately dropped to the floor. I don't get it. Colie has changed so much. She seemed so nice and so cool but every single time she's around Amy and I, or just around Amy she is just so mean. I don't get it. Amy is so nice so why would Colie want to do that? No one likes feeling diminutive. Eh, I guess her homelife is probably like that. Colie said she has it pretty good and I shouldn't worry, but of course she said I was an asshole and should get out of her life, and she is making her decisions for her.
Me: She's 16 and she can make her own decisions don't tell her or me what to do.
Colie: Shes not allowed to anymore, this is her family and we make these decisions, not you.
Its a mean streak I've never seen in her. Did I step on the wrong toes? Yeesh. Anyway...
I'm running out of paper so I must hurry this part up. This is what really got to me.
We spoke about our feelings towards each other...we just stopped in the middle of the woods and she said she felt something that was possibly love. And I was already feeling that but couldn't admit it. After Marianne and Shirley, the constant lies and mistrust, there parents trying to get rid of me, and them both having this need for revenge, but she made a promise to me that she'll see me again. She held me and for the first time in almost 10 months, I was able to believe that love was possible and she wasn't going to be someone I regretted. Looking into her eyes, the woods so quiet, her so beautiful, I cannot resist but believe that this truly could be love.
Okay, my hand hurts so I'm putting the pen down and I'll write sometime else. Now I have to get rid of my present mood because of a line she said when we met. "Damn kid where do you end?"
Sincerely,
Rick"
Well...now its written. Amazing...what I was thinking then...amazing how I still think of that kind of stuff now.
Peace,
Legion |
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