PHQ-Nickname:
Wolfsbane
Halfquake:
The Chamber
Level:
1
Total kills:
64
Birthday:
00th 0000
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| Mood: | depressive |
| Type: | Diary entry |
| Added: | March 15th 2004, 02:16:42 |
| Visits: | 1312 |
| Series: | [ Amy's Journals... ] |
| Rating: | Not rated yet. |
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Description:
In the memory of Benji... |
Do you know how it is when you hold someone in such high regards that you think they're invincible? That's what I thought Benji was. I was convinced that he was invincible. He was just...so damned cool. I was damned sure he was invincible. He was just one of those kids that you think is so untouchable. I thought Benji was untouchable. I could have bet my god damned life on it. But, he wasn't. He wasn't invincible. I just found this out, cuz he's dead now. I can't even believe he's dead. I'm going to go down to Narragansett and still expect to see him.
I'm gunna miss him. This is hitting me hard. I'm not OK. I'm not ok with it. I'm not ok with losing a friend like him. I'll admit that I didn't talk to him often, but I didn't need to. He was always looking out for me when we hung out or were in Study Hall talking. We used to talk every god damned day. 45-50 minutes a day. I saved his ass from getting in trouble. I used to buy him food. GOD DAMN IT!
WHY DID HE HAVE TO DIE?!?! WHY?!?! I don't get it! It wasn't supposed to be his time. He's not supposed to die! He was a special kind of kid. He wasn't supposed to die. He just wasn't. He was invincible. HE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE INVINCIBLE! HE WASN'T SUPPOSED TO DIE!
I can't believe it though. I really can't. He can't be gone...he just can't. It's Benji...not anyone else. Other people can die...Benji can't. He can't...just can't. Even when shit got bad, he told me life was always worth it. I never saw that kid sad. He just can't be gone...he really can't be. Someone wake me up from this nightmare and tell me he's not dead. Someone tell me he's not dead. He can't be dead. It's not right if he's dead. |
Legion
March 15th 2004, 23:22:18
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| No one is truly dead if you keep there memory alive. And in that way someone is invincible because the memory and soul last forever. Cherrish those memories my love and you keep him alive. |
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