PHQ-Nickname:
Seth275
Halfquake:
Seth Galaxy Corp.
Level:
21
Total kills:
614,025
Birthday:
November 20th 1986
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| Somerandom Title because Fed Up dosent fit anymore |
| Mood: | apocalyptic |
| Type: | Diary entry |
| Added: | June 06th 2005, 15:05:23 |
| Visits: | 1297 |
| Series: | [ Thoughts about (My) Life ] |
| Rating: | Not rated yet. |
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Description:
Urhm dunno the Moods don't fit it's somethign between GET AWAY YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE GET BACK INTO YOUR SHITHOLE OR I'M GONNA PUNCH YOU and urhm something like Please be so kind and just let me alone.
Roughly it's (once again) about my fucking life. I don't expect Answers. |
Urhm Yeha *sheesh* it's amazing opend up this page and all somewhat "non neutral" feelings are gone... Yeha Gonna write something anyway :S
Currently I'm doing an eight week internship (today was the first day). It really pisses me off all those fake smiles and lies and ergh those people stink. Ok Ok u might say it's just the first day i know that this impression could change. (Even though it probably won't)
I don't know why i'm so pissed off by it, even before it started i was already pissed maybe because this fucking shit steals me the 3 weeks of my 6 week summer vacation, the last one i'll probably have for the rest of my fucking life -.-" urhm did i mention that i don't get anything for working there? No Wage, probably no thanks probably just NOTHING Oh yeha yeha i know "experience" n1 ... i don't care -.-"
*sheesh* (Yeha i'm using that even in real-life) if this would be the only thing it would be nice -.-" I don't know why but actually everything is just somehow overwehlming me -.-" There is this stuff with my father that's still unfinished (I wrote about it soooooooooome time ago <-- just the reason why i'm not going to talk about it again) Hmmm what elese...
Uhrm yeha things thingy most people call "Girls" no wait its not about girls its about what people call friendship or maybe its just about something elese i dont get, you know i'm just a stupid fat assed boy. I don't know why but i don't get any respect for anything I'd like to get respect for.
This Stats at school, i get good grades in some classes such as programming and databases and why? I can't tell i'm not doing anything i'm writing bad code i lack skills... *sheesh* But in other classes where i'm "proud" (Sorry can't tell if i'm really proud thats something i gave up a while ago) that i've done something, aquired something for me i just here that i've done it all wrong that my work sucks and that i'm completly useless ... something like that
Do you have people that ackknowledge your work? That say Hey thats grade that you did that and that while your are also feel good that you've done it?
Yeha i know that i'm boring you, you know you don't have to read it`...
Hmpf right ... do you guess waht comes? RIGHT even more crap about my shitty life  You know theres this girl in my class (the only girl in my class at all) it's one of the rare girls i'm getting along quite well, no i dont know why. She was talking about leaving the school and stuff and so i tryed to help hear, sat down with her together and learned with her for praogramming and database classes. Nothign help she didn't got it at all and i didn't even noticed it at all (Side Note: She was the first Non Family girl that entered my room since years i think since 8 Years?! )
Then she couldn't get an internship place so i even helped here there asked around i my family bla bla and stuff finaly found something, one of my Uncles said that it had something to do with webdesign and stuff and now it's my fault that she ended up in the Press Deparment of the Company my Uncle is working for. -.- So i even messed that up
Theres just one thing i'm good at... working for others i don't know why but i'm pretty often end up with thsi people that you could maybe on a vague way call "friends" shes one of them... and yeha you know we're a group of lets say 5 People who does all the work? Me Right me alone, the others are fooling around being lazy doing nothing. They still dont do anything. Then we get the marks for the work and they organize it that i get one grade better then they are,, thats what they call a reward... i dont get a "Nice Job" or Hey Thanks or something like that >_>
Shit the cable of my Speaker got unplugged by accident now i don't know what i wanted to write -.-"
Hmmm damn its gone... Ah now i got it again.
Last weekend i did something i rarly do - go out with people. One of those "friends" invited me to get along with them (Someone else i know, he and 2 other people i still dont know) we did get to a festivel at 9 p.m. (Thats night right?!) drunk some beer (during the whole time i jsut drunk 3 Beer O.O) at around 12 p.m. we got back to the town and got into a club and stayed there form around 1 a.m. to 3 a.m. it wasent as bad as i prediected even though the other dood i know still did some fun on me just because I'm not that experienced with girls. (I'm glad i didn't tell him that i'm still a virgin  should i be sad that i'm even when i'm getting 19 this year i'm still a virgin?) Back to Topic. Ah know Crap i mean Crap that noone really cares abotu and that wasted traffic and webspace, yeha anyway so i even danced a bit at the end (something i never did before, it was the first time i was in a club as well -.-"). I don't know if i should be happy that i've done it or i should be sad i mean its just going to be another impression of what I'm probably never going to do again or at least not going to do again for a really long period of time...
Shit now i dont know how to get one with this fuck hmmm damn so I'm just gonna post it :/ |
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