PHQ-Nickname:
Wolfsbane
Halfquake:
The Chamber
Level:
1
Total kills:
64
Birthday:
00th 0000
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| 8-28-03 TANGENT...WARNING...STRANGE CONTENT |
| Mood: | apocalyptic |
| Type: | Diary entry |
| Added: | August 28th 2003, 21:50:43 |
| Visits: | 1440 |
| Series: | [ Amy's Journals... ] |
| Rating: | Not rated yet. |
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I do not understand. Why is it up to me to do everything in this fucking house? Why is it that when my sisters do not do what they are told I will be yelled at for it and I will be punished for it? Maybe I am just unwise, but I really do not understand. They take NO RESPONSIBILITY. None of them do. NOT EVEN MY FUCKING PARENTS. They are all so childish, and they act like they are not. But, I implore anyone to spend one day with these irresponsible and horrid people and tell me how they like it. I would not curse even my most horrific enemies with this fate. I am sorry, I am just fed-up with all of this bullshit. I've had it. I'm losing it...I really am. Not to mention if any adult besides Momma Z ever knows about the shit i see and hear and feel they'll lock me away and drug me up. Seriously...even two people I have come to trust told me to either seek professional help (doctors/psychiatrists), or try medication. PLEASE SPARE ME THE BULLSHIT.
Well, its not nice to leave people in the dark, so here it goes. I see the fucking dead. I hear them, I see them, I sense them. I have no easy name to identify them with. They are my comfort when I have no other. The weird thing is...they are my friends. Weird huh? Yeah, I'm a fucking psycho chick that sees 'ghosts'. If you can even call them ghosts. They seem to force their emotions that they cannot express onto me. What did I do that makes them know that they can expose this much of themselves to me? Yes, I am aware that I do not make sense right now. You see, I made them go away about two years ago when my dog died. You see, I knew that I would not be able to handle it, so I asked them to go away. Now I will admit, not all of them left. Some of them stayed. Some of them have even physically hurt me. Its kinda funny. I have such clear memories of the things they have said and done. Well, that is all for now. I've got this out of my sysytem.
~Amy |
Legion
September 02nd 2003, 06:32:44
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| My love....soon all the problems shall be at an end...I assure you. |
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