PHQ-Nickname:
Seth275
Halfquake:
Seth Galaxy Corp.
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21
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614,025
Birthday:
November 20th 1986
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| Mood: | apocalyptic |
| Type: | Diary entry |
| Added: | January 19th 2007, 13:37:14 |
| Visits: | 1259 |
| Series: | [ Thoughts about (My) Life ] |
| Rating: | 4/5 (Votes: 1) |
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Description:
Do you know such situations? |
Yeha Yeha I didn't wrote anything for quite some time now and now I get here and just start whining again >_>
Anyway today we wrote something like a mixture of an exam and a test for Math and another lesson which I don't know how to translate. Anyway I started studieing about half a year ago and everything isn't really working out how I'd like it to be so I'm somewhat disappointet about myself and yeha everything just doesn't feel right, right now.
So I wrote that test/exam thing today and I knew the Questions within it would be just things we already talked about in class so I grabed my notes about a week ago and learned a bit everything till yesterday which means I tried to remember how to solve the things, adjusting them to minor changes within the Questions wouldn't be hard. As always there are things that I just can't remember even if I try very hard but I thought those things weren't really neccessary I'd make up for them with the rest I knew... So after I got the Questions today I just noticed "Nearly everything whithin this test consists of things you don't know" but I did my best to come up with something and write it down to get at least some points.
I guess both tests will be an F and my mother called me to ask how it went I told her that I don't feel to well about it and she just replied that I should stop playing Computergames and everything would be going smooth. I just can't believe it! Sure I played Computergames before and after learning but so what? Should I sit there for hours staring at things that I can't get into my head anyway? And I learned stuff its not like I looked at my notes for 5 minutes and said "oh yeha fuck it" I'm so fucking angry right now not only about my mother but also about myself. I mean I know I'm not doing 1000000% well right now and I'm angry about myself that I'm not able to do it and on the same time while you're really angry about yourself someone comes along and gives you a direct hit into your face >_>
Geeee OIANSONODSOIANDOIASNDO!!!!
Did you experience something similar? Or ever felt like that?? |
TheNameless
January 19th 2007, 22:10:46
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Hehe yeah I had similar feelings at some points. But right now it's the worst time
for me. I'm just about to write the hardest tests for my abitur.
I already wrote German and English last week and was pretty surprised not to find
any sign of nervousness in me. And in fact, it went pretty good, I don't expect bad
marks. But in two days I'll write physics. And I am pretty sure, that I won't do
good at it. The day after I'll write math. I will do better there, but still bad.
I have been terrified of these since several weeks now and I didn't learn as
much as I should have learned.
Whenever I wrote some exam bad, my mother used to say:
Hey come on, you just needed to learn more and play less computer games.
But most times I tried to prepare well and the questions were not very
helpful.
And a comment like that kicks you right in the balls, because it's somehow
really unfair, but you can't argue with that since you don't have a good grade.
So the anger stays inside you and you can't let it out and it eats up your soul.
Or something like that  
But right now my abitur is eating me up and I hope, that bad comments can be
left out on my upcoming bad results -_- |
Seth275
January 21st 2007, 20:27:38
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Good look mate! I'm sure you'll handle it somehow  Sure good grades are great but if you get through it it's worth more! At least thats the way I'm thinking about it %)
Not being nervous is something good too. I tend to be calm as well because my attitude towards it is like "well yeha fuck your theory" or something similiar 
So yeha good Look  and thanks for leaving a Comment that showed me that I'm not alone |
muddasheep
January 23rd 2007, 21:55:31
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| My mother used to tell me to quit sitting in front of the computer and learn something instead. Well, in the end I spent my entire free time on HQ and HQA - and dropped out of school. But you wouldn't be able to write your entries here if I had listened to my mother. |
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